Saturday, September 30, 2006
the crazy stuff we do..
when drinking...

(no that isn't me but I wish It was, or at least that I was the cameraman)
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like last night's video. I made a couple more evidently but nobody will ever see them, I was in shock this morning when I clicked on one. Well, maybe shock isn't the word to use, perhaps horror would be more appropriate. No they aren't what you are thinking, perfectly clean, but completely embarassing. I'm not going to go out tonight (even with three offers, I will be strong)

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This is a short post, I just woke up, have to run over to The Big E (It's the final weekend Yay!!) and then pick up my kids. We are actually going to spend the day there today, should be fun (and expensive). In a week or so I will have enough money to pay all my bills off, have a ridiculously extravagent weekend with the kids (we do this every year after the fair) and maybe enough left over to buy something cool, like this new PC I've been eyeing of late.
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10 more useless things about me..
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41. I have a grey cat named Suede, named for a Tori Amos song.
42. I suffer from insomnia.
43. I have big hands, this girl at work used to call me ET fingers (behind my back of course)
44. The first celebrity I ever met was Yul Brennar when I was about 10.
45. My drink of choice always involves Vodka.
46. I spent my summers from age 17-21 working at a local amusement park called Riverside Park (Now 6Flags New England) Damn that place has changed.
47. My Ex is now a Newscaster for a local TV station (40 WGBY)
48. My most favorite food on this earth is Paella.
49. My biological grandmother (paternal side) was a diagnosed skitzophrenic who was institutionalized for 15 years and conceived a child while committed (my Aunt). She was later released, married and had three more children. She was a hoot let me tell you, but incredibly warm and loving.
50. I cry during sad movies.

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I made it to 50! Half way there now


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Written at 7:38 AM by The Persian.
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Friday, September 29, 2006
My latest Video..an experiment
Written at 6:30 PM by The Persian.
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yikes...

Me: Hello
Mike: Hey Jim, how are you doing? I had a wonderful time the other night
Me: Yea?
Mike: I searched and found all of your genealogy sites, amazing work, I had no idea!
Me: thanks, I've been at it since I was 16. Keeps me sane sometimes.
Mike: Yea. One problem tho, I cannot seem to locate your blog, I've searched everywhere.
Me: oh
Mike: What is the address?
Me: well, actually it's annonymous and I like to keep it away from the eyes of my family and friends.
Mike: ohhhh ok, I understand.
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That will teach me to share my first and last name. I felt compelled to as he did first. I mean how can you not in that situation? I know he's harmless, and kind of sweet. I mean we did have an amazing conversation about our common Persian heritage and also some related interests. Maybe I am being too hard on him, he is closeted and from what I can gather has not had much experience, only "experimenting" for about two years. It's just the hookup thing I am not comfortable with. Yea of course I have done it in the past (very very rarely) but why is it that some people have only one thing on their mind? I think I totally surprised him when I started talking about history, genealogy and my political views. As a matter of fact he said "I was totally not expecting this conversation". I bet he wasn't. Ugh...
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10 more useless things about me..
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31. I have a thing for very skinny guys. I'm not saying built, just very thin.
32. I have worked for the same company since I was 21.
33. My first car was an Oldsmobile Cutless Supreme, I was 17.
34. I am an only child, although I have a step sister.
35. I have very dark brown eyes.
36. both of my ears are pierced, which I did myself.
37. I'm considering removing them in the near future, but the gauge is pretty large.
38. My commute to work is 15 minutes.
39. I live 20 minutes from Hartford, CT & 45 minutes from Albany, NY but 2 hours from my own state Capital (Boston)
40. The farthest immediate relative I have lives 30 minutes from me (Gram), everyone else is about 20 minutes away. (Biological as well) No I am not an inbred hick!
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Am I ever going to make it to 100? The facts are getting more and more boring.
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Today is physical inventory at work, I am sooo not looking forward to it. Since I am in IT I don't actually have to go into the warehouses and count, but I do need to key punch and process the counts through our system. The one thing I hate about this twice annual event is that every salesrep in the company (60something) is in my office, and they are needy people. I suppose the day will go by rather quickly.
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CRANK CALL FRIDAY
today's gem comes from The Old Gary Craig show in nearby Hartford, CT. An elderly man get's stuck in his craftmatic adjustable bed. I think it's pretty funny...you decide :)
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Written at 7:20 AM by The Persian.
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Thursday, September 28, 2006
I'm so tired this morning...

last night my son and I went to this amazing show down in Hartford. I hadn't been to this place before (The Webster Theatre) and because they had two stages, we missed the first (and most important to me) group, instead watching 5 small shows by local bands which were actually pretty decent. I've already seen The Hush Sound anyway (when they opened for Panic! last July) but still....they were the initial reason I snagged the tickets a while back. The three we did see were:

Daphne loves Derby
Copeland
Jack's Mannequin

I am falling more and more for Copeland and they were pretty amazing. But the highlight of the evening was definitely Jack's Mannequin, which I have been listening too pretty consistently of late in anticipation of the show. The lead singer Andrew McMahon (also of Something Corporate) set the room on fire, this kid has so much passion and sent the crowd into a fury I haven't seen in a long time. He is recently recovering from Leukemia, and donated the entire proceeds of the show to Cancer research. If you haven't checked them out, here's is a clip that started the show (the studio version of course, boots aren't up yet) :

Bruised

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Standing for 5 hours straight on the cement floor took it's toll on us, at first I thought it was just me, but right before the last song my son told me he couldn't stand there anymore and we moved up toward the door which was carpeted and also had a place for him to sit. His mother called like 10 times, since it was a school night and she was kind of pissed off. No more mid-week shows during the school year I guess.
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So Mike/Mikhail called last night at one point, obviously I didn't hear my cell and well wouldn't have answered anyway. He said that he had an incredible time last (Tuesday) night and thanked me, once again asking for my email address and this blog's url. I think giving him the blog addy would be a pretty cruel thing to do, hopefully he doesn't find it himself.
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10 more useless things about me...
(I'm building up toward 100 remember)

21. My adopted father was an Interior Designer with his own Boston firm.
22. My natural father designs Cabinets.
23. I have a size 12 foot
24. I have a unibrow
25. my favorite color is Green
26. I've been in two back-to-back relationships since my divorce lasting 3 years each and live-in since nearly day 1. The both ended badly and neither speak to me anymore.
27. I love Puerto Rican food and can make Arroz con Gandules to perfection.
28. The two most amazing cities I have ever visited were Copenhagen, Denmark and Toronto, Ontario.
29. I am not a beach person, I mean I love the ocean, but not sitting on a blanket roasting away.
30. I sleep fully dressed, even when I was not single. Which usually pissed my exes off.

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HNT

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Written at 7:31 AM by The Persian.
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Wednesday, September 27, 2006
should trust my instincts...

So I returned one of Mike's (Mikhail actually) 3 calls yesterday. He got right to the point, and asked if I had plans for the evening. I said no, he said he wanted to come to my condo. I misunderstood the original plans I guess. Then he popped the question:

him: Do you smoke?
(I'm thinking oh he's an anti smoker)
Me: yea a little
him: Because I have some I can bring
(now I really feel like an idiot, that one always gets me)
me: No I don't smoke in that case.

Now I was a little uneasy. I thought about calling him back and canceling, but I didn't for some reason. I gave him directions and he said he would be over at like 7 or so. I cleaned up a bit, took a shower and waited. Around 7:15 my buzzer rang (we have a main entry door we have to buzz people in through). I hit the button, heard him come through the outside door and then...

Heard

Him

walking

up

the

stairs

and

then

the

knock...

I

open

the

door

and....




OMG! It's Mr. Bean!!

(hehe not really but a very close likeness)

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He was carrying a six pack of Mike's Hard Lemonade (maybe it was a subtle hint). I kind of sort of recognized him, but not really. He was also a bit overweight (ok more than a bit). Oh yea and he stuttered constantly, getting stuck on (I would say) about every 5th word. I guess that doesn't come through on the voicemails, or maybe it's a nervous thing, I dunno.
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He came in, sat down opened a Mike's and we started talking. It was an interesting convo actually, and it turns out he's not really half Italian. His father is Persian and mother from Afghanistan. What a mix! He was also educated in England and since his father was some sort of a diplomat, lived at times in India, Nairobi, Iran, Iraq, Russia, and of course England. He had an air of sophistication and worldliness about him. So we talked, drank, talked some more, and then at like 9 he became very forward.

him: I've wanted to ask you this since I got here but we keep talking.
me: yea? Ask me what.

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(ok like I didn't see this coming, the blatant stares and the fascination with my hands and feet should have been red flags, you can imagine what he asked)

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well it wasn't what I was expecting. He had come over to hookup essentially. He's closeted. His family has no idea and well he likes it that way. I mean it's not like he's married with children but still, he is at least 35 and very single. From that point on I wasn't so much into the conversation. I am not into hookups, and well I guess I was expecting more from this.

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Nice enough guy I guess, but like I said, I had the wrong idea. We're not looking for the same thing, I won't be seeing him again (obviously). He kept also asking me for my blog addy so he could check it out. It wasn't too hard to sidetrack that one... whew!!

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I think I may just be single forever...
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Written at 6:17 AM by The Persian.
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Tuesday, September 26, 2006
it's not working out..

so I won't be making any more video posts, at least until I can get some decent capturing software. Windows movie maker just takes way too much time. It takes like a half hour to an hour to film, edit add effects etc. THEN it takes another 30-40 minutes to save as an Mpg, then another 20 to save to You Tube and then post. That's 2 hours+ every night, I don't have the patience nor time anymore. Oh well, it was kind of fun while it lasted.
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Yesterday was my mother's birthday. I picked up the kids after work and headed up to her house. It was a nice evening, my two little nieces running around the place (they are too cute, even tho waaay too spoiled). I got her some Anti Virus Software & a Sarah McLaughlin CD. I think she was happy with the gifts, it's hard to find something for her, because she doesn't work and spends way too much time shopping. I'm having a harder time finding gifts for her the older I (we) get.
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TMI Tuesday...
I was going to keep up with this, but they are getting a little graphic and I guess it's not my thing so much. Here's today's questions from TMI blog...

1. What's the longest you've ever gone without a shower?
maybe 3 days when I was camping with my parents once. I am middle eastern and well, showering at least once a day is a necessity.

2. Do you use a q-tip? If so, how often? Come to think of it not so much

3. Do you have any piercings, if so where? Any for sexual purposes?
Yea both ears. Two years ago I had two in each ear upper (cart) and lower, but the gauge was pretty big and it was hell to find a comfortable sleeping position because cartilage piercings never seem to completely heal.

4. Oral sex... give or receive?
I'm not going there.

5. Sex while on the period... ick?
um... well I guess when I was married we did on occasion.

Bonus (as in optional): Tell me your fantasy... details!
At this point a date would be a good start. :)

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yea ok I know booooring ass answers, sorry.
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The Persian guy keeps calling... I don't know why I am so hesitant to talk to him, but maybe it's because we met in a dark bar when I had been drinking. Honestly I have no idea what he looks like and his constant phone calls (despite the fact I've only returned one) are getting kind of well, I dunno, here is the latest:

A call from Michael The Persian Guy

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What does everyone think? Yea I know he sounds kind of sweet but that was like his 10th call. We're supposed to do something tonight, although I may just cancel and tell him that I am not really wanting to persue this. ugh... What is that accent anyway? Anyone know? He says that he is half Persian & half Italian. My friend tells me he doesn't look Persian/Middle Eastern but then again he had been drinking that night as well (altho he apparently wasn't as bad as I).
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I woke up late and need a shower. Laters :)
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Written at 8:23 AM by The Persian.
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Sunday, September 24, 2006
my Saturday...
so we saw this double feature (unexpectedly) last night..

We actually only wanted to see the first film, but when we were getting tickets the clerk informed us that if we stay in the theatre, Covenant would immediately follow. The first show began at 7:40 and the second ended at about 1130. We got home by midnight and I was wiped out so went to bed. They stayed up a little longer.

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I really love John Heder, I can't explain it but add Billy Bob Thornton and you have a very entertaining film. I wish I could say the same for The Covenant. It was horrible, we stayed because it was free and we had nothing else to do I guess. It had a pretty "interesting" cast however...



One thing that struck me as odd was the abdundance of shirtless, pantless, rather excessive shots of these guys above. It was almost as if they were trying to make up for a really bad storyline by shocking your senses numb with butts, perfect abs, and 20 year old half nude guys.
Ya know, it didn't work for me. Mission failed, horrible horrible flic. Don't even bother watching unless you are obsessed with the beautiful male form. In that case turning off the volume will not lessen the experience. Better yet get a Corbin Fisher subscription.

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The Persian guy from yesterday's post keeps calling. I haven't listened to the voicemails, I am with my kids and really this is our time together, he will have to wait until tonight for my call. I wish I remembered what we talked about or what he looked like. Shit I didn't even know his name until he left the first message yesterday afternoon.
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UPDATE: Ok so I called him back, he has a strong accent, definitely middle eastern (I am not convinced he's Persian yet) there is something fishy about this guy I can't put my finger on, my friend thinks so as well. He says he's 32, and apparently (because I can't for the life of me remember) my friend was a bit more coherent Friday night and agrees with him looking about that age. When I called tonight all these phones were ringing in the background and he was asking me NOT to hang up please, and yelled to someone else in the room to "take that call". Hm....like I said something smells funny. The plan is to have a longer convo tomorrow, and then possibly meet up Tuesday (my only free night this week coming).
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There are (believe it or not) a couple other guys I've met online (while a bit inebriated) of late. I need to stop going online during and after drinking. I make promises that I don't keep when the next day arrives. It might seem to make me a shady person to some, but actually it's that I am two different people. No really, I am. One is outgoing and I get lots of ims online, and then the other wants to delete all my screen names and profiles the next day. Let's not even get into the pictures I take and put up. Ok ok they aren't that bad comparatively speaking.
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I better quit before people get the wrong idea. Be back tomorrow. Time to make my daily video.
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Written at 4:30 PM by The Persian.
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Saturday, September 23, 2006
the long road home..


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ugh last night was the worst. I've lost another friend to substance abuse. I posted a while back that my dad passed away when I was 15, the result of a cocaine overdose. As a direct result (I was rather traumatized as you can imagine) I have never touched anything. I've smoked a couple times, but honestly I don't enjoy it. One of my best friends had a problem before I met him, he was in recovery when we met. He's fallen off the wagon since. When he's back up here and we're hanging out, things usually get ugly. and then this...

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I have another friend that has started using lately. Never around me, I wouldn't tolerate that, but most nights otherwise. Last night he, I, and another friend went out. (my ex was there and he got fat) At least one dealer (who he is evidently familiar with, and who I really pissed off I guess by pushing him off a bar stool, accidentally of course) He disappeared (the friend who uses) and then left us in downtown Springfield transportationless. It was a 5+ mile walk home, and he could have cared less. I still can't believe we made it here in one piece.

Ohh and last night I saw this guy out, walked up to him and asked if he was Persian. I mean there aren't many in this area but he WAS! Half Persian & Half Italian (like me). He was too kool, and gave me his number, which I can't locate this morning. Well I really haven't looked, I guess I've been pre-occupied with other things. Truthfully I don't remember what he looked like, but my friend tells me he resembles this guy(the one on the left, which is possible since they are locals who own an Oriental Rug company) :


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I need to go back to bed, I'm just home from the Big E and very tired. The kids are staying over tonight, my ex-wife has a wedding to attend. We will definitely have some fun.
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Written at 10:20 AM by The Persian.
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Friday, September 22, 2006
short post running late ...


10 more useless things about me...

11. I work in IT
12. I started smoking at age 21
13. I have 3 websites dedicated to Genealogy & Family History
14. I drive a 2005 Silver Nissan Altima
15. My father left my mother for a man when I was 2 1/2
16. My mother remarried when I was 7, she's still married to him.
17. I am a Tori Amos fanatic, altho I've only managed to see her live 8 times.
18. I met Tori once and handed her a genealogy I had done, she was floored.
19. I live alone (with my cat) in a 2 bedroom condo.
20. I am distantly related to Anderson Cooper through my Gram.

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I'm working on getting to 100 and then I'll make a sidebar link.
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Talked to my blogger buddy Dave in Cleveland last night, what a great guy! He is a married guy currently struggling with coming out. He's only recently created a blog, (which he needs to start updating regularly *wink*) but has been with us for quite a while in our comments. Anyone in Ohio? He seems pretty lonely up there send him some love would ya?
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Crank Call Friday
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Sol (Jerkey Boys) is looking to buy bird seed. Funny stuff :)

Bird Feed

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Written at 7:03 AM by The Persian.
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Thursday, September 21, 2006
what a day....

I had the worst day yesterday, nothing went right. I mean nothing. I rant about it in yesterday's video a bit. I went home for lunch to change my shirt and pick up a card for my niece and on the way back a series of events delayed me 45 minutes (the trip should take 15 max). Then after work I had to drive over an hour out of my way to retrieve some presents my parents had forgotten at home, then there was my nieces party, which is a story for another day. end.of.rant



my cat is driving me insane. she knows (yea she does, don't give me that "she's only an animal " crap) that she isn't supposed to go into the living room (she scratches things) and yet, I just chased her out of there for the fourth time this morning. It's funny, when I go in there to get her out she starts running and emits this groany irritated noise that so indicates to me she's pissed at being evicted. She knows exactly what she's doing, trying to get into the trash and grab a nice item for herself. I feed her very well, but for some reason she finds it exiting to steal away something from the trash. weird cat...
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so I'm going to start something on Thursdays...
in the revealing spirit of HNT..
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10 useless facts about me
Volume I

1. I am a Gemini (not that it really indicates anything, I don't believe in astrology)
2. I was adopted at age 2 1/2 months, yet given up at birth (she wouldn't sign me away)
3. I have a BA in History (It took me forever)
4. I was married (to a woman) for 6 years (this is Massachusetts after all)
5. I have two sons who live with their mother (and her boyfriend)
6. I've been to Europe 7 times (I need to travel in the US more often)
7. I am 6' tall and weigh 154 pounds (as of yesterday)
8. my adopted family are 75% Italian & 25% English/Dutch
9. my natural family is half Persian (father) 1/4 Sicilian 1/4 French
10. I found my birthmother (and father) by myself when I was 20.



(don't look if you are afraid of Bears, or Otters )

Click here for me

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Written at 6:48 AM by The Persian.
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Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Way Back Wednesday... me :)




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As an only child (and grandchild on my father's side) I am never at a loss for pictures of me growing up. It also helped that both my Mother and Aunt were camera happy people. By the time these were taken, my parents were already divorced and my father was living in Boston & New York with his lover Bob (a teacher in the Boston School system)... my Dad passed away when I was 15, but Bob still lives in Winthrop (MA). Haven't seen him in ages, but I think about him often. An amazing guy, here are a couple pics of my Father & Bob...





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I think about what it would be like if my father was still alive. We had much in common, and were very close, despite the distance (2-3 hours) and visitation limits (Saturday 10-6). I wonder if he had any inclination... I suppose he might have, I'll have to ask Bob if I ever see him again. I don't know what has prevented me from contacting him, all these years I have never tried. I know he drives the 2 hours a couple times a year to place flowers on Dad's grave, I even ran into him there once when I was about 19 on my father's birthday. He is always skittish around me, won't look me in the eyes, stutters a bit and makes off quickly. I wonder why... I mean what has he to be shy about?? Is there something I don't know? hm....
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Well that's it for today, I have to make a special trip over to the Big E today for my Aunt. After work I am heading up to my step-sister's for her daughter's birthday. I won't be home till late so my video post will be a short one. Have a Happy Hump Day everyone :)
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Written at 6:06 AM by The Persian.
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Tuesday, September 19, 2006
TMI Tuesday
(goes along with #4 below, weren't we a hawt couple)
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taken from the TMI Tuesday blog (thanks to Polty)
I thought I would start giving it a go.
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TMI Tuesday

1. Have you ever shared sleeping accommodations with someone without anything steamy happening? (Opposite sex for breeders, same sex for homosexuals).
Yea sure who hasn't? There isn't always a mutual attraction, although we all certainly have had our moments where we have been with people we are not very attracted to.

2. Streaked, flashed, or otherwise partially or totally exposed yourself in public before (or after) an informal, unofficial gathering of people?
No not that I can remember, well there was this time in Rome I did a "Photo Shoot" on my way up to the hotel room I probably could have been thrown out for. It was after like 6 drinks.

3. Have you had dates with multiple people in the same weekend (or consecutive nights or the same night) while not all of your dates were aware of your actions??
Yea, and of course they didn't know about each other. I can remember once back in 2000 (I dated a lot that year) where I dated a different person every day for a whole week.

4. What is the most "romantic" you have ever gotten in a movie theater?
Back when we were teenagers, my ex-wife (at the time we were not married) would cover my lap with her/my jacket and well, you can guess the rest. This also happened in the car while I was driving, behind the school after hours, in her parents living room. Let's just say we experimented a lot.

5. Have you ever had sex when you knew a non-participating adult was watching?
I am kind of embarassed to say yes, on at least a couple of occasions. Maybe you need to better define Non-Participating..*wink*

Bonus (as in optional): If you could say anything you wanted anonymously to anyone, without identifying that person, what would you say?
"Answer my calls u freak and come pick up your shit already, it's been three years and 6 boxes don't stow away so easily in a condo" ahhh that felt really good.

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yea ok that was kind of revealing and makes me look like a ho.
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what is a Bear?
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(not those giant animals who live in the woods either)
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I have an online profile where I guess somewhere I checked the "Bear" box. A couple people messaged me that I am NOT a Bear, or "This guy is not a Bear" etc.
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So I made a checklist:

1. Hairy (check) no wait (double check)
2. Beard/Goatee (check)
3. Shaved Head/Bald (eh thanks grandfather for the receding hairline, check)
4. Heavy set (ok well is this where I am disqualified? because I'm skinnyish?)

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SO what is your definition of a Bear? I'm curious.
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Written at 6:41 AM by The Persian.
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Monday, September 18, 2006
forget the coffee, this will wake you up...

Yesterday was pretty eventful, ran over to The Big E, set up my window, and then picked up the kids. We headed to Grammy's and then went to the Eastfield Mall for some lunch and shopping. (actually the kids shopped, I just tagged along) You can see a video of some of this on my other blog here. We then headed back here (sans Grammy) and watched a couple movies. Nothing really of note except Jersey Girl (ahk it was horrible). I guess I bought it because (for one it was only $7.99) of the Kevin Smith thing. None of us could make it past half way, it was that bad. I thought I read somewhere that it was during this film that Jennifer Lopez and Ben Affleck fell in love. Doesn't really matter, no wonder it was so cheap. I suppose that was the only redeeming quality of this flic, actually maybe not. In any case, Kevin what were you thinking??

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Oh man do I need a shave, yikes... (beware MEGA spooky picture below!!!)
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ok so now that I've scared the everliving crap out of everyone...
I need a shower (and yea a shave).
Hope everyone has a decent Monday.
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Written at 6:53 AM by The Persian.
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Sunday, September 17, 2006
woah what an incredible film..
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Saw this yesterday and was floored. It was absolutely amazing, so many twists and turns as well as incredible performances by, among others... Scarlett Johansson & Josh Hartnett


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set in 1947, it's the story of two ex-boxers turned policemen who try and solve the grizzly murder of a young aspiring actress. You never see the twists coming, and everything is tied up so well at the end. I completely recommend catching this either in theatres or a rental.
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I need to find a great movie editing program, can anyone recommend one? Windows movie maker is getting on my nerves. Plus it takes like 45 minutes to capture and create a "decent" quality clip, and even that isn't so great. I mean I really am trying to get a video up every day over at the other blog (7 consecutive days thus far yay) but I don't know how much longer I can deal with this shite. Half my night is devoted to it now. I do have a life after all. :)

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Today will be much the same as yesterday, except no movie (at least I don't think) and lunch with Grammy. This should be fun, she's loopy in a cute way, well at least I think so.
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I need to take a shower and head over to The Big E again...yay :(
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Written at 6:38 AM by The Persian.
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Saturday, September 16, 2006
Pain without love...

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling down
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand

Pain, without love
Paint, I can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain

I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later

Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain
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Three Days Grace
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Pain
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I am so addicted to this song..
They opened for Staind at the show my son
and I saw 3 weeks ago.

Written at 11:25 PM by The Persian.
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ahh The weeeekend...
(some obnoxious oriental statue thing my father left me)
It was one of the recoveries from my old house, weighs like 20 pounds no lie!
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I spent last night over at the old house (I made a video in case anyone remembers me talking about it and would like to see the shack in 3D, well not really, maybe 2D) The place is freeking trashed (as a result of the pipes bursting last December, thank god I lived here by then), paper falling off the walls, a nasty brown film on everything SPIDERS everywhere!! They will be ripping it down as soon as we finalize the sale and put up a Pizza Shop (and an amazing one at that) on the lot. I can't wait for them to level that dump. Good riddance.
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Oh man today is going to be insanely hectic!! I have to run over to The Big E and set up my window, take inventory, count da money, and then rush off to pick up the kids. After that we will get some lunch, catch Snakes on a Plane and then come back here to chill out for a couple hours. I have like an hour to clean this place up, shower, get in my car and be over there. The first weekend is sheer madness, hundreds of thousands will pour in the gates. I am soo glad I don't work it every day as I used to.
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still haven't learned yesterday's lessons...*sigh*
(I did however remove the links I had to YouTube)
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I love organizing my pc,
I always come across pictures I forgot I had, like...
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(my mom's doggies Salty & Josh )

(my Tori Amos collection)

Some useless factoids:
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  • The first couple to be shown in bed together on television were Fred and Wilma Flintstone.
  • Hawaiian alphabet has 12 letters.
  • Men can read smaller print than women; women can hear better.
  • City with the most Rolls Royce's per capita: Hong Kong
  • State with the highest percentage of people who walk to work: Alaska
  • Percentage of Africa that is wilderness: 28%
  • Percentage of North America that is wilderness: 38%
  • Cost of raising a medium-size dog to the age of eleven: $6,400
  • Average number of people airborne over the US any given hour: 61,000.
  • The world's youngest parents were 8 and 9 and lived in China 1910.
  • The youngest pope was 11 years old.
  • A crocodile can't stick it's tongue out.
  • The oldest known goldfish lived to 41 years of age. Its name was Fred.
  • In 1987, a 1,400-year-old lump of still-edible cheese was unearthed in Ireland.
  • If an orangutan belches at you, watch out. He's warning you to stay out of his territory.
  • 1,200 college students streaked at the same time in Boulder, CO in 1974.
  • Penguins can jump as high as 6 feet in the air.
  • The most money ever paid for a cow in an auction was $1.3 million.
  • There is a town in Newfoundland, Canada called Dildo.
  • On average, a human being will have sex more than 3,000 times and spend two weeks kissing.
  • The average human has seven sex fantasies in a day.

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    Friday, September 15, 2006
    ehk....

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    things I'm learning...

    Lesson #1 :Don't Drink Vodka in sizeable quanities
    Lesson #2: Do NOT Blog under the influence
    Lesson #3: Don't make videos under the influence, you will embarrass yourself
    Lesson #4: Never post comments on Blogs while drinking you will look like an ass
    Lesson #5: Do NOT message people on You Tube when drinking.. BAD idea

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    well that being said (and out of the way) Happy Friday :)
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    Today is the first day of The Eastern States Exposition aka The Big E.
    It's a huge event lasting 17 days, starting today and winding up the first week of October. My father's family has had concessions there (Food, Beer, Wine, etc) since before I was born. When I was about 18 my grandad started having me help him with the Cigarette end of it. We had machines then (since removed because of Minor's having access to them, it's a town ordinance and with good reason) until a few years ago when we switched to selling them out of the back window of our main food building. I also sell Beer and Drinks (Soda, water etc.). In the beginning I would work every day, but in the past few years I've reduced my time spent there to weekends, and partial days at that. It's my business, I pay someone to work the window when I'm not there, and I keep 100% of the profit. Since we are basically the only Tobacco vendor at the fair it helps out finances every October. Anyway... They usually have some semi big Musical acts, although this year's highlighted artist I've never heard of (not surprising as I know nothing of Country Music)





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    so I should get going, instead of Crank Call Friday this week, I am putting up a song I can't get out of my head. I walk around saying "uhn tis uhn tis" all day long. People must think I'm strange (what else is new). Seriously, if you aren't familiar with The Bloodhound Gang (honestly their older stuff is better, I mean who can forget "You're Pretty when I'm Drunk" or I wish I was queer so I could get chicks" ) but this track is addicting, have a listen and you will see what I mean. Would make an amazing club hit, hell it probably already is.

    Written at 5:34 AM by The Persian.
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    Thursday, September 14, 2006
    The leaf peepers are coming...
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    Yawn.... I am so glad I made this post last night. It seems lately I have had the worst time getting up and moving in the morning. Maybe it's the season, cooler mornings etc. Uh-oh know what that means? Soon the leaf-peepers will be here in New England. Did you know that people ACTUALLY fly here from all over the country (and world) to look at our fall foliage? How incredibly weird is THAT? I mean a tree is a tree right? ok maybe not, but still.
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    I've notice something of late, perusing around blogs (some of which I am familiar with, some are new to me). It has been said that people can come out of their shell when blogging (compared to real life) and become the person (virtually) that they may have always desired to be in the real world. I'm finding this to be partially untrue. Has anyone ever noticed that the most popular bloggers are often the most confident & sucessful achievers? I have. I wonder if that is possibly because of their eventful lives they are able to offer up material which others naturally find interesting. Maybe I think too much sometimes...
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    Thanks to my buddy Polty, I am posting this kool MEME.

    1. Do you leave a tip at a restaurant? If so, how much?
    Do you double the tax?
    yes of course, doubling the tax would be for bad service (in my case)
    eh maybe I'm a little too generous at times.

    2. What celebrity did you have a crush on growing up?
    Olivia Newton John & Andy Gibb

    3. Do you excuse yourself to “fart” or let it rip and blame the guy next to you?
    I never ever let it rip, I guess it's just something I was raised not to do.

    4. When entering or exiting a store, do you hold the door open for the person behind you, if they're relatively close… if they're more than 10 steps away do you pause and hold the door open?
    I'll hold it open if they are reasonably close.
    I have on the other hand not held doors for people I had issues with.
    (like at work or something)

    5. Ever had mono?
    Yup, freshman year of college.
    I was bedridden for a whole month!!

    Bonus (as in optional): Ever paid for sex?
    nope, but I have been propositioned. Yikes!
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    Are video blog's creepy? I am interested in what people think.
    I even made a video about it!! :) What do YOU think?
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    I know I posted on this yesterday, but today is officially my birthmother's birthday.
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    Happy Birthday Blanche!!

    (she was pregnant with me in this photo)
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    Wednesday, September 13, 2006
    Way Back Wed....my birthmother

    I met my birthmother after an exhaustive search when I was 20. The story is detailed on my sidebar drop-down (Favorite posts) or by clicking here . Since tomorrow is her 56th birthday I thought I would make this brief post about her since my adoption story pretty much leaves off soon after we were re-united.

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    So initially we spent a lot of time together, her, me, my biological father and my girlfriend (and subsequent wife). We took a couple vacations together, met up for birthdays, Christmas, went out to dinner at least every couple weeks. Let's just say we were pretty close. Things started to change right after I got married. They were at my wedding, as were my bio-grandparents and a couple Aunts. They are very sweet people, my biological family, and have always tried to make me feel loved, accepted etc. I wasn't looking for that necessarily, having been raised by the most amazing mother, father & stepdad you could ask for. I never wanted for anything (and still don't), but the outpouring of affection and attention was amazing. I am lucky in that respect, so many adoptees find something much more disturbing when (and if) they search out their biological families.
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    After my marriage things started to change (as I said) my bio-mom and my mother had an argument. I suppose it was terribly petty, but you could tell my Mother really didn't want to be around her anymore. She was hurting and I could see it. I started to distance myself from my birthmother at that point, and it only got worse when I started having children. I felt that having both of them at family events from that day forward would cause my Mom to feel second to the woman who gave birth to me. I couldn't ever tolerate that, she is my only mother, and I love her with all my heart. So I started seeing less and less of my birthmother, soon we were reduced to phone calls on holidays/birthdays and maybe annual visits. Then she divorced my birthfather and became sort of a recluse. I have only seen him once since, when his mother passed away in 2000. We don't even speak on the phone anymore.
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    My birthmother and I keep in touch to a degree, I've been to her apartment perhaps twice in the past couple years, and we call each other occasionally. Strangely enough she has moved in across the street from my condo this past June. She called me once, I missed it and she left no message. This seems to be pretty common with us lately. She hasn't been here to my condo, and I have not seen her new apartment. I suppose we may get in contact in the near future, but who knows. I will place the Happy Birthday call tomorrow (as I have always done) maybe she will answer, maybe I'll get voicemail. I won't be happy or upset either way. It's just my way of letting her know I am thinking of her (she is estranged from her siblings so I doubt they will be phoning her up) .
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    I spent sooo much time tweaking this video I made yesterday. I am such an amateur when it comes to this stuff, I finally gave up and uploaded what I accomplished thus far. Oh it's really bad, the music is off, the speed makes you dizzy when watching. Let's just say it's a mess, and I'm none too happy it didn't get uploaded yesterday as I was trying to make that a daily video blog. Well it was captured yesterday, doesn't that sorta count? I think I need a lesson from Mr. Adam, who is incredibly creative. Check out his videos (and podcasts) if you get the chance, completely amazing stuff.
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    Guess who is running late yet again...
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    Written at 7:16 AM by The Persian.
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    Tuesday, September 12, 2006
    sleepy..

    I can't wake up this morning. As a matter of fact I have like 15 minutes to get ready for work or I'll be late. Yesterday was a blur, worked till 7am, slept till like 11, made a dumb video while driving around doing errands, returned home captured/edited the video and then posted it. I look like ass because I was so tired (even given the sleepage). I was in bed again by 7 and now I am up feeling like crap. I'm also on coffee #2 and it's not helping so much. Maybe I am getting old I dunno.

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    Isn't it cool who when you are posting in Firefox that it automatically saves your work every couple minutes? I almost lost a post yesterday, my screen froze and then errored out. When I got back in the post was still there! The only downfall I am experienceing with Mozilla is that when you create in Mozilla and edit in IE there are problems. Plus, what you see in one is most often NOT what you see in the other... SO:

    Poll: Who is using Firefox & who is using Internet Explorer?
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    If you guys would answer in comments so I can get an idea of which I should use when editing it would be great. A post created in IE always looks fine in Firefox, but the reverse is not true. I can't help but feel many people haven't taken the Mozilla plunge, maybe I'm wrong.


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    so I was paying bills yesterday and got to my last one (Electric) and noticed it has nearly doubled since last year. No seriously, $157 for ONE MONTH! Yikes... I remember at the old house my monthly bill in the summer was at most $60 or $70. What the hell is happening? This is a condo, much smaller and better insulated than the old shack I used to call home. I mean why should my electric bill be more than my Cable & Cell combined? I mean I can't pay this right now, it will have to wait at least 3 weeks. Hope I don't get a shut off notice!

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    Written at 6:45 AM by The Persian.
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    Monday, September 11, 2006

    It's been 5 years already, the time has passed so quickly.
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    When a horrific tragedy of this proportion occurs, often we lose sight of the individuals lost, looking rather upon the event in terms of general statistics. I think the most important thing we can do as Americans today, on the 5th anniversary of 911, is take the time to visit one of the numerous sites dedicated to creating biographies of those lost. We need to celebrate the lives they lived.
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    When I was very young, my mother and I paid a visit to the cemetery where her beloved grandmother was buried. It was an old place, riddled with weeds and unkept stones. Driving through it, I commented that only a scarce few of the graves had flowers growing in planters. She said something then which has always stuck in my mind...
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    "Those unfortunate people have truly died and left this world"
    I asked then
    "Why?"
    she replied
    "As long as someone lives in the memory of another, they live still"
    I didn't really understand at that time, but I do now.
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    Do you remember where you were on 911?
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    It was just before the start of The Eastern States Exposition. I have had a booth there since I was 18 where I sell Cigarettes and Beer. I had just borrowed my grandad's van to pick up the cigarettes from my place of employment. It was an older Van and did not have a CD or cassette tape player. I have never done well without music. I got in, turned on the radio and heard that the first tower had been hit. It was a moment I will never forget. I have never felt so horribly vulnerable and afraid before or since.
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    When I was in 8th grade my school took a trip to NYC where we visited both the Twin Towers and Statue of Liberty. I have the photos still, taken on the roof of one tower. I remember it vividly. I can't put my hands on the photos right now, but when I do, I will add them to this post.
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    I worked third shift last night.
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    I got home at 730 and slept till maybe 11.
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    I ran a few errands today (which will soon be detailed visually in my video blog)
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    I need a nap.
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    Michael check out the clip over there, the post office run was for you, they said about 3 days, so expect a little package Thursday or perhaps sooner. :)
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    Sunday, September 10, 2006
    Video Post #1


    Starting tomorrow my videos will appear on my other blog:


    I'm amazed that name wasn't taken. I hate the template over there, needs some work, but I am kinda sleepy at this point (working 3rd shift tonight) and need some serious sleepage.

    Doesn't that icon for my video make me look scary? Yikes....
    Written at 7:51 PM by The Persian.
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    Saturday, September 09, 2006
    Becoming even more visible...

    So I've decided to make a Video Blog. It will be linked from my profile, and when I get everything sorted out, will be posting a short video daily. I have had a video camera (not the same one hehe) since I was 15, and have always loved being behind the camera. I want to get creative with this, we'll see. Most importantly it will add a new dimension to my blog, which is pretty cool (I think) considering the anonymity here. Right now it's called "The Persian" but I am not so sure I like that title, any ideas?

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    Happy Birthday

    Adam Sandler

    40 years old today!

    In tribute this super short clip of my favorite scene from Happy Gilmore.




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    I think I own every Happy Madison production, and it's strange because I usually don't like slapstickish comedy. As a matter of fact I can't sit through Jim Carey, Robin Williams or Will Farrel (ok Will maybe, he is funny on occasion). For some reason I love the Sandler movies, and so do my sons. Can't believe he's 40!!

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    Written at 7:58 AM by The Persian.
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    Friday, September 08, 2006
    Only in America...
    would some country yokel come up with the idea for this culinary masterpiece:

    The Krispy Kreme Bacon Cheeseburger...

    It's sweet like a doughnut, and then you've got the hamburger. You've read that right. It's a burger with cheese and bacon, sandwiched between a Krispy Kreme doughnut a heart attack waiting to happen. A burger so perfect, they say, tampering is discouraged. You're ruining it! You're not supposed to put ketchup on it! Bowers says to a diner. Well, I don't know. It's my first time,he replies. For a mere $4.50 it's breakfast, dinner, and a little dessert all in one. That it packs up to 1,000 calories doughnute donut alone has 10 grams of sugar doesn't seem to faze diabetic diner Floyd Schuetz. Oh, I'll have another one of these, he says.

    read the full article on the CBS website ---> Krispy Kreme Bacon Cheeseburger

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    This reminds me of that Monty Python Spam skit where the lady asks the waitress " Would you do me egg bacon spam and sausage without the spam then" and the waitress exclaims:
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    (click above to hear her)
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    I have never had a Krispy Kreme doughnut and haven't eaten red meat in 5 years at least so maybe I am not the one to pass judgement, but still. I wonder what the company thinks.
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    on Self worth..
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    post removed, I guess I was in a funk toay.
    No need to bring everyone down with me.
    In any case, here is the song I uploaded
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    (click above to play)
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    Written at 12:16 AM by The Persian.
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    Thursday, September 07, 2006
    an eventful evening.. (in my life anyway...)
    Yesterday was different for a change (day 3 by the way, I'm on a roll......) Got home from work, caught up on some blogs (a couple new discovery/links to my sidebar as well ). I had a few emails to respond to on my two Sicily forums, and then went to the TUBE for a bit. At like 530 I took a nap (most mornings I am up by 4 so sometimes I just need to shut my eyes for an hour, instant rejuvenation). Then I got a call from this guy I was seeing a while back (it was expected, this wasn't a surprise) We made plans to meet in CT so that I could help him look up something on his grandfather. First we hit Wendy's and and then off to the LDS Family history center. The records were pretty bad, unreadable, wasted trip I guess. Afterward he came back up here to my condo so we could watch this movie he wanted me to see.


    I'm not so sure I really liked it. Parker Posey was not at her best, I felt like she was in a cast of idiots (well except maybe for Chris Kattan, who was at best ok). I felt like the writer/director tried too hard, no waaaay too hard. I laughed a little, but not enough to want to see it again any time soon. The guy who brought it here said (because I am a die hard John Waters fan) I would love this film. Not that it IS a Waters film, but he thought that one would indicate the other. No way, not even close. Like (por ejemplo)...

    Steve tries to show Adam some affection in public, and Adam shys away saying something like "every time I show affection to another man in public, a Jersey redneck throws a beer bottle at me" After that every time they kiss/hold hands/etc a beer bottle comes flying out of nowhere. By the end of the movie they are ducking on Q... like I said, the people who made this tried a little too hard. It wasn't horrible, and well, twas was a nice enough evening. Afterward I stood up, thanked him and pretty much said I was tired and needed to get some sleep. He left, I am pretty sure he was expecting some, I just wasn't giving any. Yea ok that was a little graphic, sorry. Let me change the subject....

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    Written at 6:54 AM by The Persian.
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    Wednesday, September 06, 2006
    Way back Wed....& passed out PG pictures
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    introducing.... Amelia Elisabetta Del Favero DaVia, my maternal great-grandmother. Born 1877 Valle di Cadore, Provincia di Belluno (in the far north, a stone's throw from Austria) daughter of Osvald-Antonino Del Favero & Maria Carmela Agnoli. She came to the US with her two daughters Giovanna & Olimpia in 1903. My nona (her youngest) Margherita was born here in Massachusetts in 1922. One of my favorite possessions is her original Citizenship certificate (pictured above) which hung on her wall until the day she died (which was a decade or so before I graced this planet, but her memory was kept alive all during my childhood).

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    Her husband Massimo Da Via abandoned her and the children (6 daughters) somewhere about 1930 and was last heard of in Lafayette, Indiana (wherever the hell that is!). She was a simple woman whose proudest moment (or so I have been told) is the day she waived the little paper flag at her naturalization ceremony. She also didn't photograph so well, every picture I have ever seen displays this humorous look on her face....




    Years ago, when I was about 17 I went to the local courthouse in Springfield to find her petition, it of course had (another) photo of her, signed across the front in her simple writing. The clerk (an elderly woman) burst out in laughter when she opened the book to Nona's entry. She then proceeded to share this with a few coworkers oblivious to how I might (and did) take offense. Anyway I was a Jr in High school, I didn't say anything but for some reason I never forgot. Despite the "deer in headlights" look, there is something so warm and loving about her photos, a sense of innocence, yet depth. Would you believe she has two daughters still living? One is 102 and the other 99!! My grandmother Margherita passed away about 12 years ago age 68.

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    For some reason I couldn't sleep last night and was up until 3 AM reorganizing my PC (a project of momentous proportion). How many people out there drag things to their desktop in order to upload/post/edit a file located on some remote part of their hard drive only a search will uncover. Honestly I do it all the time, so every so often I need to clean up the place. It's amazing what you find when you start rummaging through your computer. like these gems, taken by my friend after a night out in Springfield... my friend decided to take some pictures of me passed out in the kitchen, yikes!!! Don't get the wrong idea I actually slipped and fell on my butt after coming in the door and then laid down and took a "nap lol (I'm not sure exactly when these were from but since I've only lived here since November of last year they are relatively recent.. I'm thinking April or May of this year based on the Tshirt..)


    1 , 2 & 3


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    Written at 7:18 AM by The Persian.
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    Tuesday, September 05, 2006
    I so hate being back at work today. Even three day weekends aren't long enough these days. (Ok so I'm a lazy sod but still). It seems for some reason my life is flying by with an ever increasing pace. This always happens when I'm drinking on a regular basis. It's like I get home at 4 and woooooooooooooooooosh I'ts time to get up and go to work again, then it's 4 again and I'm driving home, only to repeat the cycle. I really want to join a gym or something, get into a cleaner routine. I should start walking, after all I have an Ipod (or five) and could catch up on some of my favorite podcasts.
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    I just found out my old house (some of you might remember the posts I made about where I used to live before moving into the condo) is being sold, ripped down and a Pizza shop will be built on the lot. That old shack holds so many memories, most of which are negative. My ex-wife used to say it was cursed. I think she's not so far off the mark. The man who built it (by hand evidently, and not so well) died in the upstairs bedroom, I think he haunts the place. Nobody who has ever lived there has been happy (myself included)... here is the list:
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    1. The builder Ezra Granger and his wife Mildred (he left her a widow at age 47).
    2. My parents (they moved in just before I was born/adopted) and divorced by the time I was 3.
    3. My single dad (after the divorce). He was a broken lonely man and died of a cocaine overdose while living there, age 41.
    3. My spinster Aunt. She is still unmarried at 58.
    4. My ex-wife and I (I'm not even going to go into that one)
    5. My 1st BF (we did so well until moving into the house after my ex-wife and kids moved out)
    6. My 2nd BF (sadly I think we were doomed to fail since day 1, we never spent a night apart in the three years we were together) He "officially" moved into the house after about 2 weeks. Talk about an intense relationship.
    7. Me (after those three relationships above) I think Ezra came with me cause I'm still not exactly in the best place.
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    anyway the house is owned by this realty trust thing created by my grandfather and the trustees have decided to sell. I want to be there when that wrecking ball hits.

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    that's about it for today...

    except one question for some of you....

    Is You Tube's deviant little brother (and near namesake) becoming a huge part of your free time? Ugh...it's like I can't stop going there!! I've even neglected my blog because of it. Maybe I should get out more, start dating.... yea ok, I'll get right on that.

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    Written at 9:18 AM by The Persian.
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    Monday, September 04, 2006
    another Video Post (yea ..don't hate)
    The video will load, just takes a sec :)


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    If you get frustrated, just click on the picture below. It will play directly from my server.


    Written at 2:30 PM by The Persian.
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    Saturday, September 02, 2006

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    someone insinuated that I made that video perhaps in the presence of the guy above. If anything I was a little nervous, maybe that came across the wrong way I dunno. But sorry I hadn't had a drink (yet hehe) In any case it was fun to make, sort of adding another dimension to my profile and blog. Actually I wish more people would make these little clips. It was Larry the lovelemming who inspired me to figure it all out and post it. My main issue has always been finding a program to reduce my videos (without spending too much, my budget is tight).

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    Tonight is the Staind show down at Mohegan Sun with my younger son. We are both really siked about it. Did I mention they are local boys? Originating right here in the Springfield MA area. I'm taking him to dinner and then the show down there (they have an amazing buffet).

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    We're going to see Snakes on a Plane this afternoon. I am intrigued, and yea one of my idiot friends had Samuel L. Jackson "call" me to make sure I went to see the film. (Check out the site for more details) It's pretty funny, he even calls you by name and mentions the friend. What a cool angle!
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    Question for any former smokers...

    What did you find most helpful in kicking this disgusting habit?

    I'm sick of my clothes, condo, car, hell even (according to my aunt) my tupperware reeks of smoke. It isn't just me, I have a friend that is over a lot and he smokes quite a bit as well, it's like the home of a 2Pack a day smoker between us. I've really had it this time and well would love some input. I tried cutting back last time, and not smoking inside. It reduced my usage for a while, but eventually I gave in. It was just too inconvenient (and uncomfortable) smoking outside when the temps were 5 degrees F.

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    That's it for now... Everyone have a great weekend :)



    Written at 4:09 AM by The Persian.
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