I went back to bed after yesterday's post for a couple hours. I headed up to get my younger son at about 10 and en-route decided to call my ex-wife to be sure he was going to be ready. She told me my older son actually did want to come with us (he said earlier he had too much homework) I was very happy to hear that. They got in the car and it was like nothing happened. He then proceeded to tell me he was glad we didn't make the bus, that he was having anxieties about going to NYC and also that he didn't blame me and it wasn't really my fault (given the circumstances) You can't imagine how relieved
I was to hear that.
Every year after the Big E (I mentioned this in an earlier post) we take this one day and go on a spending spree. I put aside a big chunk from the proceeds of my sales aside and because my normal budget doesn't permit us to do this usually, it's always so much fun. We hit Bestbuy first, then went to an amazing lunch at this very cool place in Enfield, we ate like there was no tomorrow. We then drifted over to Barnes and Noble and spent even more. We must have gone thru $500 easily between the three of us and there were smiles all around by the time we arrived here at the condo to relax.
My younger son picked up a half dozen CD's (The Killers, Taking Back Sunday, Jack's Mannequin to name three that come to mind) My older son grabbed a few movies (Monty Python's Search for the Holy Grail and Amadeus are two that I remember) and a couple books.
---I snagged these
Yea ok that makes me look a little gay
. Hehe :)
The thing is now that I am on my way to quitting smokes I like to take the time to read during the frustrating times, staying away from the PC . It's worked well for me in the past.
the prescription Vicodin and Percosets. I won't be needing them anymore.
My toe feels completely normal today and the swelling has gone down considerably.
I headed out last night to meet a couple friends at the bar. I hate going out alone (well walking in alone
I mean). I parked, got out of my car, walked almost to the door and then started having this anxiety
attack. For some reason
I couldn't go in. (maybe it's because walking into a gay bar alone
is like being a celebrity walking up the isle at the oscars to receive their award, all eyes and cameras are on YOU. Except that in a Gay bar
caddy little comments tend to circulate, and given that most would have been drunk by 12:30 I would probably hear a few of them) I walked back to my car, got in and drove home. I am such a freak sometimes. :) It was for the best I guess. I kind of didn't feel like going out anyway.
Well that's my brief recap of Yesterday, it ended on a very positive note. Thanks everyone for your comments yesterday, they really
helped me get through it.
I'm running late, and need a shower. I have to pick them up early today.