One year ago, July 15, 2005 I began blogging. Initially it was to eliminate Alcohol, Cigarettes and Carbohydrates from my life. Well I stuck with the Alcohol and Carbs for 6 months, the smoking on the other hand wasn't so easily tackled. For the first couple months I hardly had a reader or comment, which was fine as the purpose of the blog was to organize and document my progress. One day I stumbled upon a blog and that was the beginning of the end.

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His name was Brian and he was the first Gay blogger I had encountered to that point. I think it must have been August of last year. Soon after I started checking out some of his friends, posting comments on other blogs for the first time and well, the rest is history. I found and formed friendships with some pretty incredible people, and my blog began evolving. I started sharing more and more about my personal life and eventually it became a daily routine for me.

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Then in April of this year my ex discovered the blog, sharing it with my two young sons and all hell broke loose, although not initially. I kept blogging for two months, until the day came where my older son told me he no longer respected me, that he didn't want to see me again and that I was leading a "deviant" lifestyle. I still kept blogging, even though my heart was certainly not in it anymore and I felt compelled to censor my posts and began losing the desire to continue. That is when I removed my blog. Immediately it was picked up by a spam engine who still owns it apparently. I guess they track blogs with sizeable hits and when they are deleted immediately scoop them up. Oh well, there is not so much I can do about it in any case.

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So here I am again, on the anniversary of the creation of my original blog, which has been gone since June 2nd. It really isn't so much time but feels like years to me. I miss you all, I haven't even been able to read your posts. I was for a while after but they made me terribly sad for obvious reasons. Enough time has passed and well, I have reconciled with my son, and things are so much better now. We are closer than ever.

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I've been drinking a lot of late, and well, probably gained 15 pounds. So, on this, the anniversary of my first attempt to get Dry*Free* and Lean, I start the mission yet again. Wish me luck! :)